By Rev. Allison Agius
I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN I am called to ministry, but for too long I was focused on my own plans instead of listening to God's work in my life. Once I finally had the courage to answer my call, everything seemed to fall into place.
My journey through seminary looked much different than that of my peers. Second career, a mom of two young children, a wife, a home, and a job… what could I do but trust the process? I won’t say it was easy, and I won’t say there weren’t tears yet I will say that I learned more about myself in those three years than I have ever known. Before I knew it, I was walking across the stage at Convocation and our family had done it!
I was not prepared for the whirlwind of emotions that came with Bishop Todd’s email inviting me to be ordained to the diaconate. I was humbled, honoured and fearful all at once. Fast forward a few weeks and I found myself at the pre-ordination retreat on the beautiful shores of Lake Erie. Water has always been a “thin place” for me, so it seemed fitting that I would spend a few days near the water with four wonderful colleagues in ministry as we prayed, shared, laughed, and learned.
The morning of the ordination felt surreal as we shared one last breakfast and went on our way. My family, close friends and I checked in early to the hotel and were able to enjoy some cherished time together before the rehearsal.
As I walked into the church, I felt like I was walking on air; it felt like my wedding all over again. I clearly remember the feeling of humble gratitude as I was presented to Bishop Todd. Just as I had promised my stepmother before she passed away, I slipped her ring on my finger and vowed to serve God. Her and I had talked at length about how important it is to have an outward symbol of my sacred vow, just as I had with my wedding.
One of the most poignant moments of the service for me, was when Bishop Todd indicated that I would be administering communion; I actually looked at him and said that I didn’t think I was allowed… He assured me that I was and so I did.
That is the moment it was really real. I can’t put into words what it felt like to be gathered around the alter with my Bishop, and my cohort as we sang “Here I am Lord,” a hymn that sums up my call to ministry beautifully. I left the church that evening filled with grace and humility to confidently go where the Holy Spirit leads.
Rev. Allison Agius is Deacon Assistant to the Archdeacon, Episcopal Office.
Photos: Charlotte Poolton